시 (of the heart ♡)

hello again, sweet guests. i hope you are enjoying your residence here so far. welcome back to the spiritual waiting room ♡ today, i am offering poems that i wrote, and trying to explain to you the meaning behind them and what they tell us about the world.

i think i love poems because of they’re beautiful yet so simplistic. often composed of short sentences and words yet conveying a message; i think it’s a beautiful thing. much like the korean word for poem, 시, a new word i’ve learnt with this entry in mind, they’re short and sweet. not over complicated but filled with emotion. so here’s my 사랑시 (love poem) to the world. enjoy 즐겨요.

07.10.22 ♡ secrets from a lotus

wandering angel

my wings are tired

tired of wandering this plain

watch over me

and the other dreamers

whisper to the moon whilst it’s on the wane

bury a secret

deep inside of a wilting lotus

nestled, she’s

between petals

it will float away,

warm with the oncoming breeze

above all, my poems are streams of words and emotions that resonate with me at the time. but, i find that afterwards a deeper meaning can be found between the written lines. with that in mind, this poem to me is representative of the burdens many of us carry around with us in mortal society: “tired of wandering this plain”- referencing said burdens and expectations we hold ourselves to and we are held up to by society, that we exhaust ourselves trying to reach. so, in contrast to this more dystopian view of society, we go back to our roots: the idea of “burying” secrets “deep inside of a wilting lotus” is the idea of going back to our fundamental roots- nature and finding beauty in our surroundings. finding tranquility amongst chaos. the meaning goes deeper than what the line may suggest. it’s advice to us all that we should let go of the aforementioned burdens and leave them to nature in search of peace, when they will “float away” with the “breeze”. ending the poem with mention of breeze, something so slow and naturally occurring brings it back to the original message- that sometimes we feel slow and beaten down by life. but, by accepting and freeing ourselves, we can find inner sanctuary. ​♪

i hope you enjoyed~ take what resonates and think about what you’re carrying day-to-day that you could let go of. share your burdens and worries; they’ll float away. 

i hope this reaches you well. live happily ♡ your admin, sparkle

feel your existence

hellooo again dearest readers ♡ this is your host Sparkle speaking and today i wanted to discuss blogging as a concept.. ironic that i’m posting this on a blog…

so, blogging: i find that blogging can come in very different forms for different people. for example, many people use their personal blogs as a way to display their crafts or products. blogging i think is something seen as quite outdated in our modern sphere yet i believe that it’s on the rise again, just taking a new, updated form. like most things, blogging is a shapeshifter. traditionally, blogging was for tips or advice. and then tumblr was released. 

i think that tumblr greatly changed the way in which we view blogs: no longer were they relics, monuments of past times left up to guide the people of the future. now, they were cool and edgy, in a way, displaying pictures and a perfectly curated and individual energy to the whole interweb. this is the first shift from blogs being for mum’s or crafters into a mainstream younger audience. i mean, i remember when i was little my mum always saying that her and i should start a blog where we talk about anything at all and i always found her idea a little silly. this is what made me want to talk about this topic as i wanted to explore the change. 

i keep two physical journals: a bullet journal and a mini pocket journal for miscellaneous entries. i tend to put my poems and astrological notes in there along with my stream of emotions coming out as words on the page. and i love this. i love the intimacy of my journals; they’re safe, no one can find me there. but something inside me longs insatiably. i have an unquenchable desire to reach people, like-minded people who enjoy things like me and think the same way i do. i think this again comes down to often feeling out of place among my peers. i either feel that they’re immature or just don’t understand me. i struggle to feel understood in this world so often filled with judgement and hate. people’s hearts these days are like lockets but rather than opening gently and with sweet memories stored within, they’re locked away behind bars and with padlocks. it’s hard to connect. especially when you feel different from the people around you.

don’t get me wrong, i have a wonderful friend group who i love very much, but they don’t really. understand me. obviously no one is ever fully understood by anyone, that’s the nature of being a sentient human, but most can see themselves in their peers more than i usually can. i generally find it hard to identify with others; i even find it hard to identify with myself, which i’ve mentioned briefly in a previous entry, but that’s a topic for another time. 

but im losing track of myself. my point is that i need to speak to people and discover what’s truly out there in the world- the real world, not the highschool world i depart from daily. so, i think this is what pushed me to create my blog: a strange mix of emotions. on one hand, i need solitude and safety, a place where i can only be perceived by myself. but, at the same time, i desperately want to touch people’s hearts and minds and souls and beings. so i created a public blog. 

not many people use them, unless they think in the same way that you do. that’s a beautiful thing. being surrounded by other people who understand. it’s tranquil for the mind.

that’s all. i hope my guests, you readers, enjoyed this entry. don’t feel you need to read it all. take what resonates with you as you wish. ♡ 

i hope that this reaches you well. 

​♪  感覺你的存在 (feel your existence) - jolin tsai

a seat in the spiritual waiting room ♡​♪

 i realised after uploading my previous entry that i hadn’t done a proper introduction.. so that’s what this is  ​♪

i have a basic intro on my sidebar which you can read (it contains my basic info and interests as well as what music i like etcetera) but i wanted to share some things about myself here for whomever may find my blog in the online cosmos

i am someone who likes a lot of things and wants to try every activity there is, and i have quite an obsessive personality i suppose.. so once i find something i enjoy, i tend to latch onto it for some time ♡

 i recently discovered the joy of astrology and all things cosmic. i think part of the reason i enjoy learning about this is because it helps me to understand myself. i struggle alot with my gender identity and am only slowly coming to terms with who i want to be; astrology helps me to find sense in my character, which can feel so confusing at times. i also just think the stars are so pretty [ㅜ__ㅜ] astrology to me is incredible because it’s like real life magic. the fact that we can discover things about ourselves and others by simply reading the stars and planets is something so beautiful.. and stars never die

i run a small astrology blog on tumblr to document transits and my learning if anyone’s interested. it’s @cosmicmail ✉️

another thing i find beautiful is language. the art of communication with other beings through unique sounds and letters, no two of which are the same, is an underappreciated art i think !!! i have been learning french for a while now and want to become fluent, and i have also always had a desire to learn a language that doesn’t use the latin alphabet. 나는 배우어 한국 ♡! i chose to learn korean because i think both the language and country are beautiful, and i already knew 한골 so it made perfect sense (๑ᴖ◡ᴖ๑)♪ i would love to learn mandarin as well but i think it would be a huge challenge.. maybe one day

the thing i love the most in life is fashion. to me,  clothes and fashion is its own art that can be interpreted however you please. that’s the magic of it. i collect fashion magazines from all around the world, and for every country i visit i buy an issue of the country’s vogue ♡ magazines and books are a passion and obsession of mine.. i have a very large shelf… i will love anything fashion-related really: fashion history, trends, collections and publications. my favourite designers + brands currently are vivienne westwood (always ♡), sandy liang, shushu/tong and miu miu, although, as i said, i love anything even if it’s not my “style”- i’ll still find it interesting. speaking of, i would describe my style as a feminine sort of preppy, quite timeless and with a lot of button-down shirts and ties. but, one of my favourite styles is any gyaru subculture, they’re always so cool ｡ﾟ(ﾟ´Д｀ﾟ)ﾟ｡

so, i think you understand the general message. i enjoy beautiful things: astrology, language, fashion. and so many more (see my side bar). i hope you enjoyed this entry, wonderful reader. i hope this has reached you well and the stars are aligning perfectly so our frequencies meet.. ♡

take care. ~sparkle

p.s. my big3 is virgo sun, cap moon + libra rising